I am not choosy for my potential husband but I believe quality and character is important for a life partner. It is not a matter of age but a matter of handling responsibility. I am 24 years old right now. I am heartbroken while writing this blog my tears are pouring. A while ago, I just met the man I thought  my one but tonight I officially closed our relationship ---  and forever not to talk to each other since few days from now he is leaving the country for his study grant abroad.

At the age of 25 years old, I want to get married. I want to have my own family... a husband, a son, a house and possibly a daughter. I only wanted was to be happy at that age --- obtain possible good memories with the man I love and be the father of my children.

Yet, I'm leaving him because I can't take him anymore.

That moment, I gave him a piece of paper that indicates 10 reasons why I'm leaving him.

It was difficult for me to hand over the paper and seeing him but I need to do it... for clarity. He is a man and I believe they are logical people  that needs reason. So , looking at his eyes and me almost crying, handed over the paper and said "These are the reasons." I can't hold my tears and I wiped it out.   

I said, "Sorry, I need to block you on facebook. I need to forget."
He replied, "No."
I don't know what to think...
I don't want to prolong my sadness. I wanted to forget him and move on.

FORGET: The happy memories we shared together, the sad stories I told him, the secrets I confessed, the jokes we laughed and all the things I can remember about him is I want to forget.

Please give me the freedom. I hope you found yourself a lady that will love you without perfection, accepts your sweetness and bitterness, sacrifice her life just for you which I'm not.

I am sorry if I hurt you in some many way but honestly you hurt me a lot too ... almost a lot.

In memory of our LOVE...

GOODBYE MAMIS!