This is my blog about my 25years old me. 

I know to myself I am always reserved. I don’t give my 100% potential and participation.  Maybe that’s how a libra acts, we are always in the safe zone, balancing what is right and wrong, determining the advantage and disadvantage, testing the water before jumping and the list goes on. 

That’s the downside of my persona, I am always on the backside of the story and action but the real score I can be on the spotlight but I choose not to. 

I am scared of judged, commit mistake, speak out loud my mind and being argued. Those things stop me to achieve my full potential. I tried but I always fail i can’t overcome my fear and doubts. If I did, I still doubt if I did right or it reached the expectation then people will laud my result but I still question myself. 

How sad my world is! Do you see, how difficult I am as a person? 

It all change when there will be a person who will fully trust and guide me as a potential, protege, and be somebody. 

But sad to note, at this age of mine I felt alone because no one would like to mingle and have friend with me. Why? Am I intimidated? Does my achievements as Cum Laude, Masters graduate, PhD, licensed professional or what made me different in the eyes of the people? I feel alone. I feel like I don’t have friends, co workers, teachers, mentors and purpose. I feel meh at this age.

I am walking in a dark road with no signals, sign boards and post. I am alone. 

I only wish is to revive my younger me; full of hope, energy, and love! 

This is a story of a 25 year old me.